missing people plague

So today, I miss a million people. :( LAMEEEE! I do not like it one bit. So I started posting on everyones facebook walls. MUHAHAHAHA! Makes me feel clever.

Today, I miss a million people, I assure tomorrow I will miss them even more.

Kyleelee I know you are reading this and you, my dear, are someone I miss the most. Work is so empty and strange now. It is just Mallory and I on nights. We get lonely for you and Kass. Sucks. Date soon? Chinese food? Movies? Fun night?  Miss you a lot! I promise we'll see each other soon, as a matter of fact I will text you after work tonight! OR right now, I don't know. But we can be friends for a long time, as long as you don't try to feed me bad milk!! :) Miss you! Love you!


 <3 Shelby Lynn Boone

Silence.

I Believe in the Sun Even If It Isn't Shining. I Believe in Love Even When I Am Alone. I Believe in God Even When He Is Silent.

Love, Life and everything inbetween.

Today I remembered how much I really do love Matt. He spent the night last night and cuddled up next to me. Now today we had Christmas with my family. It was so much time, although Matt hasn't been feeling well all day. He is sleeping in my bed right now in my room where its quiet. I've been playing nurse Shelby all day. Christmas was fun though, We made cookies, Matt and I watched Christmas movies, Mom and Mel made cookies, Josh and Dad slept. It has over all a successful day.

Tonight's blog won't be long though I have a Matt to tend to.

Today reminds me how much I love my life and everyone in it.

<3 Shelby Lynn Boone

Time to let go but yet I keep holding on to nothing.

The way you look at me now makes me appreciate what I had then. I'm never happy I'm always depressed or somewhat sad our relationship was one of the best things. It was so different, it stood out before the rest I sometimes wonder what went wrong while still sitting here reminiscing this sad love song I cant blame myself because I’ve been doing that all along I thought we would be friends forever but it didn't last quite that long. It was a couple months over a year and your trust was what I held so dear you were the one I ran to when I felt lower than dirt you always were there for me and because of you I didn't hurt. You always told me it would be okay I didn't want to believe it but i realized it with each passing day being without you there’s an empty hole in my heart that no one can replace. Yet I feel the need to let go. It's like you quit caring. I am not sure what to do any more.

Wasting gas and wearing my heart on my sleeve

So last night, totally not my day but then I went out and started Kylees van and my car and started brushing all the cars off to be nice. When we all got done and we got out to our cars Kylee was locked out of her van. WAY TO GO SHELBY!! BAHAHA! I must have bumped the lock key on the way out of the van! I felt so stupid. Thank God that Matthew is super smart and knows how to break into vehicles without breaking things! I feel like that sounds like I'm dating a criminal haha but I don't know how else to put it.

Also I'm still having attachment issues to people who push me away. I don't know what to do anymore I have pulled until I was blue in the face but when it's only one person pulling and the other kind of just hanging on the other end not giving a crap what you do. It just sucks. I guess this is when you need to learn that you can't let people get that close you can't let them hold on to the part of you that is dearest to you because chances are that you'll get screwed in the end.
There are some people that you do love and should let in. They may trample all over you but in the end, what they gave you, the time, the friendship while it was real, the place in their heart where whether they like it or not your footprints remain, this is what makes it worth it.

I have lost and gained so many friends. Lost more then gained. But a wise woman helped me realize that its all the cycle of life and no matter what, whether they like it or not, they will think of you.

I'll always love you. Push or Pull.

<3

Shelby Lynn Boone

It's only two months old!!!

So last night I was over at Kylees. We were goofing around joking waiting for Matt to come back with my chicken Kickers. After getting them, Buffalo flavored of course, my mouth was on fire so I asked Kylee for something to drink and she says she has milk. I was game. She pours it in a cup and I take it and stare at her. I'm looking at it, and looking at her and I asked her "Kylee how old is your milk?" She looks at the carton and she cant find the expiration date. She told me to just taste it, "Its okay!" I wasn't so sure. I was laughing so hard. We finally found the date and she was laughing and took the glass from me and dumped it down the drain. She grabbed her camera and captured the moment. We had some awesome fun last night but her hair turned out amazing. I gave her highlights and low lights. Blond and red brown low lights that have been mixed with in the blond. Its pretty sick. I love it! She did too. We both like freaked out like little girls. While she was rinsing the red brown out though her tub looked like it was full of blood so I ran and got her camera and captured some nice moments too. Whats better than Kylees head under the faucet!? Over all it was a great night. Now I'm with the nerds lol :)

Shelby Lynn Boone

Pay it Forward.

So I'm sitting at Matt's cousins house and all of the guys are gaming and I am watching pay it foward waiting for Kylee to get home so that way I can give her high lights. I am so excited. I went to Aerial today and spent 44 dollars on hair products haha oops. Story of my life. Well, I've seen this movie so many times and the message still runs across my mind every now and then. SO, if you haven't seen it. SEE it. DO IT! Well I should go, Kylee is on her way to Walmart.

Shelby Lynn Boone

The person who helped me believe in hope

Today at work I was talking with my coworkers Kylee and Kassie and Kylee looked at me and I felt a heavy feeling in my chest. As she explained to me what was going on I swear I felt my heart drop down into my chest. You know when you meet someone and you feel like God sent them to be someone special in your life? Well that's how I felt the first day Kylee started working at the Film Drop. She had an Aura around her, I have no idea what it is but I love it. Kylee is always friendly and warm. Willing to make a joke at her own expense or at mine. :) Well today Kylee told me she was thinking about going to work at Cardinal Place. I honestly didn't even know what to think. A million thoughts ran through my head, "Maybe it's not her. Maybe its not meant to be." I stalled before telling Kylee I wanted to talk to her later. Later on in the night I was sitting in the studio with Kylee prying away at me, having no idea what she was in store for. After some giggles and jokes about what I was about to tell her, I finally told her. I felt awkward. How do you tell someone something like this. It was confusing. I was scared to even tell her what I was thinking. I did though. I felt a rush of relief after leaving work. I still feel awkward about it.

Long story short, while talking to Kylee I realized that not only is Kylee meant to be one of my great friends, a person who takes things for what they are, someone I can talk to and be honest with, but Kylee is the person who makes me believe in hope. I have been searching for a Kylee for what seems like some time. I was so caught up pulling on what I should have been pushing that I forgot to pull for Kylee. Today I took the first tug. I feel confident in my decision. Today not only did I learn to let go, I learned to believe. Believe that time heals all wounds, believe that God never gives you more than you can handle, believe that God gives you who and what you need, believe that even in the darkest of times God will send you a ray of light. My ray of light, Kylee. Thank you God. :)

(P.S. Kylee you should be flattered right now!!)

Shelby Lynn Boone

Buddy

So I'm sitting here with Buddy the Macaw  on my shoulder. He reminds me how beautiful life really is. I look at him and his gold, blue, and green feathers and remember that there are things in life that are extremely beautiful. Even though some things are completely ugly. Today is a gift. This past week was hard but Sunday is always a new week. Thank you god.

When the sun meets the moon

So last night at 3 AM my cat scared the crap out of me. She started digging in her milk bowl I thought someone was breaking in considering I was home alone. I was so pissed and then she wouldn't quit meowing.

Its been a rough day today with everything going on.. After Dane passing away and thinking about Morgan so much. I don't think any one has any idea whats going on but I just keep jerking my emotions around and having all these weird moments. Life is tough when you are in a position where you feel like no one understands and you don't really even want to try to explain it to them.

I have no idea where I am going in life but I hate when I feel like I'm going in a strange direction, well time to go watch "Diary of a Wimpy kid" with Matt.

I suppose. That's enough of that for today.

Pumpkin Guts

 So today after school I came home to wash clothes and my bedding, but then I went on this huge room cleaning rampage. Haha it was so fun :/ It took so long and I think I was cleaning for 2 hours.

Matt finally came over and helped me finish up. Then my mom made us delicious sloppy joes :) I love sloppy joes. After that we dug into pumpkin carving. It was so fun pretty sure Matt and my mom loved it more then me but I do love pumpkin carving. I love anything to do with Halloween considering its my favorite holiday.

It snowed this morning, looked pretty but it was kind of a pain. It did excite me for this winter though. I LOVE WINTER.
I'm not looking forward to November 12th though. I just know that it is coming.
Well I suppose time to get back to watching this show.
Enjoy the picture!

Haunted Hair Clippings

So last night we all went to Moliters Haunted House in St.Cloud. (We all being, Matt, Jeff, Steph and of course me!!) We all had so much fun, Steph screamed so much I couldn't help but laugh, I had a few screams to though while the guys were just laughing it off. It was funny. We got home to my house around 3 AM. Matt and I crashed on the floor, we were much to tired. We had Chipotle, overall it was a really great night.

Now today Matt and I are celebrating 7 months together as a couple. Always a fun little stepping stone. I gave him a hair cut not to long ago and boy did he need it. You could really tell when the hair clippings on the ground looked like a rat. HAHA! Well who knows maybe he and I will do something fun tonight. :) Well, I suppose I should go be productive or something. Got to go say bye to Buddy the bird :)

He who stands on the toilet, is high on pot.

Okay so day two of the hair show. Met some great people, super cute things, new hair products (like I need anymore!) and some downs. Life I suppose. I am laying in my hotel bed I just finished my homework and I feel like an R-tard sitting in here alone. That's my life I suppose. I had to blog though. Today I went to my first class at the show. It was a Moxie class. A-MAZ-ING and that is to say the least. More classes planned for tomorrow. Morning wasn't to great, got shoved out the door and forgot my phone lying on the hotel bed, oops. No one is understanding at all. I'm slowly losing it. Oh, and I fricken miss Kylee. I kinda miss home too. I miss my mom and dad and kitty and obviously my man. Calling my mommy now, hopefully she answers, i missed her call earlier because I was doing Allis hair (didn't even get to do my own). I looked effin dumb. I had my hair in a quick up do, really fricken appropriate huh? Whatever though. So many raw emotions and only so many that I get to feel so I think I'll pick and choose. Yeah Mom didn't answer but that's life for you. Ready to head home and leave the princess life behind again. Well I'm being told to go so I will have to blog later.

-Shelby

Princess Weekend Begins, Without my Prince :(

Today began at 7 o'clock with an alarm. Matt, Alli, and I were sitting at Sheilas, watching Thomas the train. Logan was shooting Matt with his Nerf gun and I could tell Matt was NOT excited to let me go. Matt and I have been attached at the hip since we began dating. This sucks. We have spent one day and one night apart. This is sort of weird. I miss him. I don't like it very much.
We went to the MOA and were scoping around. I really had no interest in the mall at all. I had my heart set on something else, Matt. It's overly weird not having him with me. Everywhere we go it's always Shelby and Matt, Matt and Shelby. Sometimes I hate when things are different. Change can be good but also can be a pain in the patoot.
Life without Matt is not so fun. When Matt's around I feel more myself. Right now I feel like a second version of me.  I feel weird. I just need a nap maybe. As of right now though there isn't to much to say. I'm laying on Lacie's hotel bed
Matt called me back finally! :) Saved the night.
I'm going to go talk to my prince now. <3
Night.

-Shelby

Blood, Bandages, and Bags

So today, here's me cutting hair. Lalalala, cutting hair and WA-CHA! Shelby cuts her self with her extremely sharp shear. OWWWWIEEEEEEEEEE! (Almost screaming profanities) Seriously I thought I wouldn't ever stop bleeding. I bled bled and bled some more. It was horrible. Stupid fricken shear just closed on my finger....kinda. Now I am having troubles typing and crap! UGH!
After all that thank god Matt came and picked me up for lunch. That made my day about ten million percent better. He usually fixes bad days.
I also hit my 240 hour mark today at school, which is bamf!! That means I can legally work out on the salon floor. Which is so exciting but also makes me super nervous!! SO ANYWAY!
So then the day was getting better, untillllll I had to go to work. Some days I hate my job. I love MOST of the people but I hate the work when I feel dizzy, overwhelmed, and tired.
Yeah, so then I come home and Matt makes me supper while I shower. Which was super sweet of him. Then I have to start packing for InSalon this weekend but I am more or less thinking that I will be needing to pack tomorrow because I need so much stuff yet. But I work tomorrow. UGH! Life can be so hectic. Well I think I will continue to watch Criminal Minds and Teen Mom with Dad and Matt.

Shelby

Mannequin heads and tiny pink perm rods

So today is my first day blogging! Woo-hoo!! I was inspired but my friend Kylee. I was reading her blog that she had wrote about my friend Mal and myself and decided blogging would maybe be something good and fun for me.
So Matt (my boyfriend) and I were eating soup, we are both feeling a little under the weather. Now hes catching up with Teen Mom with me. So glad I don't have these girls problems. Thank the Lord for that one. (Hi Mom if you're reading this)(ALSO HI KYLEELEE I'M BLOGGING!!)
Today at school there are about four girls in my Cosmetology class who are absolutely ridiculous. Today one of the girls was mad at Marcy (my teacher) because the student was absent a lot and so when Marcy was busy and the student called her a fat butt (that's put in my words hers were much harsher). I am just so sick of these four girls. They are so disrespectful. All they do is text all day and talk and then when Marcy is talking they are sleeping. They also skip all the time. Why would you pay to do this?! They are so stupid most days. Also the girl from the beginning of this paragraph drives me up the wall! She stands near me in class and when we are doing work shops we listen to music and she sings ever song!! HONESTLY! I get so mad. I don't care how awesome of a singer you think you are, you are not so great that we want to listen to you for four hours. Lord knows how much more of that I will be able to handle without snapping,
I don't really know what to write today I just feel like making the blog and writing my first post was very productive. I also sort of have a headache. I am packing for the cities and taking Matt's baby sister pictures  tomorrow. More or less it should be a productive day,

-Shelby