Wasting gas and wearing my heart on my sleeve

So last night, totally not my day but then I went out and started Kylees van and my car and started brushing all the cars off to be nice. When we all got done and we got out to our cars Kylee was locked out of her van. WAY TO GO SHELBY!! BAHAHA! I must have bumped the lock key on the way out of the van! I felt so stupid. Thank God that Matthew is super smart and knows how to break into vehicles without breaking things! I feel like that sounds like I'm dating a criminal haha but I don't know how else to put it.

Also I'm still having attachment issues to people who push me away. I don't know what to do anymore I have pulled until I was blue in the face but when it's only one person pulling and the other kind of just hanging on the other end not giving a crap what you do. It just sucks. I guess this is when you need to learn that you can't let people get that close you can't let them hold on to the part of you that is dearest to you because chances are that you'll get screwed in the end.
There are some people that you do love and should let in. They may trample all over you but in the end, what they gave you, the time, the friendship while it was real, the place in their heart where whether they like it or not your footprints remain, this is what makes it worth it.

I have lost and gained so many friends. Lost more then gained. But a wise woman helped me realize that its all the cycle of life and no matter what, whether they like it or not, they will think of you.

I'll always love you. Push or Pull.

<3

Shelby Lynn Boone

It's only two months old!!!

So last night I was over at Kylees. We were goofing around joking waiting for Matt to come back with my chicken Kickers. After getting them, Buffalo flavored of course, my mouth was on fire so I asked Kylee for something to drink and she says she has milk. I was game. She pours it in a cup and I take it and stare at her. I'm looking at it, and looking at her and I asked her "Kylee how old is your milk?" She looks at the carton and she cant find the expiration date. She told me to just taste it, "Its okay!" I wasn't so sure. I was laughing so hard. We finally found the date and she was laughing and took the glass from me and dumped it down the drain. She grabbed her camera and captured the moment. We had some awesome fun last night but her hair turned out amazing. I gave her highlights and low lights. Blond and red brown low lights that have been mixed with in the blond. Its pretty sick. I love it! She did too. We both like freaked out like little girls. While she was rinsing the red brown out though her tub looked like it was full of blood so I ran and got her camera and captured some nice moments too. Whats better than Kylees head under the faucet!? Over all it was a great night. Now I'm with the nerds lol :)

Shelby Lynn Boone

Pay it Forward.

So I'm sitting at Matt's cousins house and all of the guys are gaming and I am watching pay it foward waiting for Kylee to get home so that way I can give her high lights. I am so excited. I went to Aerial today and spent 44 dollars on hair products haha oops. Story of my life. Well, I've seen this movie so many times and the message still runs across my mind every now and then. SO, if you haven't seen it. SEE it. DO IT! Well I should go, Kylee is on her way to Walmart.

Shelby Lynn Boone

The person who helped me believe in hope

Today at work I was talking with my coworkers Kylee and Kassie and Kylee looked at me and I felt a heavy feeling in my chest. As she explained to me what was going on I swear I felt my heart drop down into my chest. You know when you meet someone and you feel like God sent them to be someone special in your life? Well that's how I felt the first day Kylee started working at the Film Drop. She had an Aura around her, I have no idea what it is but I love it. Kylee is always friendly and warm. Willing to make a joke at her own expense or at mine. :) Well today Kylee told me she was thinking about going to work at Cardinal Place. I honestly didn't even know what to think. A million thoughts ran through my head, "Maybe it's not her. Maybe its not meant to be." I stalled before telling Kylee I wanted to talk to her later. Later on in the night I was sitting in the studio with Kylee prying away at me, having no idea what she was in store for. After some giggles and jokes about what I was about to tell her, I finally told her. I felt awkward. How do you tell someone something like this. It was confusing. I was scared to even tell her what I was thinking. I did though. I felt a rush of relief after leaving work. I still feel awkward about it.

Long story short, while talking to Kylee I realized that not only is Kylee meant to be one of my great friends, a person who takes things for what they are, someone I can talk to and be honest with, but Kylee is the person who makes me believe in hope. I have been searching for a Kylee for what seems like some time. I was so caught up pulling on what I should have been pushing that I forgot to pull for Kylee. Today I took the first tug. I feel confident in my decision. Today not only did I learn to let go, I learned to believe. Believe that time heals all wounds, believe that God never gives you more than you can handle, believe that God gives you who and what you need, believe that even in the darkest of times God will send you a ray of light. My ray of light, Kylee. Thank you God. :)

(P.S. Kylee you should be flattered right now!!)

Shelby Lynn Boone

Buddy

So I'm sitting here with Buddy the Macaw  on my shoulder. He reminds me how beautiful life really is. I look at him and his gold, blue, and green feathers and remember that there are things in life that are extremely beautiful. Even though some things are completely ugly. Today is a gift. This past week was hard but Sunday is always a new week. Thank you god.

When the sun meets the moon

So last night at 3 AM my cat scared the crap out of me. She started digging in her milk bowl I thought someone was breaking in considering I was home alone. I was so pissed and then she wouldn't quit meowing.

Its been a rough day today with everything going on.. After Dane passing away and thinking about Morgan so much. I don't think any one has any idea whats going on but I just keep jerking my emotions around and having all these weird moments. Life is tough when you are in a position where you feel like no one understands and you don't really even want to try to explain it to them.

I have no idea where I am going in life but I hate when I feel like I'm going in a strange direction, well time to go watch "Diary of a Wimpy kid" with Matt.

I suppose. That's enough of that for today.