missing people plague

So today, I miss a million people. :( LAMEEEE! I do not like it one bit. So I started posting on everyones facebook walls. MUHAHAHAHA! Makes me feel clever.

Today, I miss a million people, I assure tomorrow I will miss them even more.

Kyleelee I know you are reading this and you, my dear, are someone I miss the most. Work is so empty and strange now. It is just Mallory and I on nights. We get lonely for you and Kass. Sucks. Date soon? Chinese food? Movies? Fun night?  Miss you a lot! I promise we'll see each other soon, as a matter of fact I will text you after work tonight! OR right now, I don't know. But we can be friends for a long time, as long as you don't try to feed me bad milk!! :) Miss you! Love you!


 <3 Shelby Lynn Boone

Silence.

I Believe in the Sun Even If It Isn't Shining. I Believe in Love Even When I Am Alone. I Believe in God Even When He Is Silent.

Love, Life and everything inbetween.

Today I remembered how much I really do love Matt. He spent the night last night and cuddled up next to me. Now today we had Christmas with my family. It was so much time, although Matt hasn't been feeling well all day. He is sleeping in my bed right now in my room where its quiet. I've been playing nurse Shelby all day. Christmas was fun though, We made cookies, Matt and I watched Christmas movies, Mom and Mel made cookies, Josh and Dad slept. It has over all a successful day.

Tonight's blog won't be long though I have a Matt to tend to.

Today reminds me how much I love my life and everyone in it.

<3 Shelby Lynn Boone

Time to let go but yet I keep holding on to nothing.

The way you look at me now makes me appreciate what I had then. I'm never happy I'm always depressed or somewhat sad our relationship was one of the best things. It was so different, it stood out before the rest I sometimes wonder what went wrong while still sitting here reminiscing this sad love song I cant blame myself because I’ve been doing that all along I thought we would be friends forever but it didn't last quite that long. It was a couple months over a year and your trust was what I held so dear you were the one I ran to when I felt lower than dirt you always were there for me and because of you I didn't hurt. You always told me it would be okay I didn't want to believe it but i realized it with each passing day being without you there’s an empty hole in my heart that no one can replace. Yet I feel the need to let go. It's like you quit caring. I am not sure what to do any more.

Wasting gas and wearing my heart on my sleeve

So last night, totally not my day but then I went out and started Kylees van and my car and started brushing all the cars off to be nice. When we all got done and we got out to our cars Kylee was locked out of her van. WAY TO GO SHELBY!! BAHAHA! I must have bumped the lock key on the way out of the van! I felt so stupid. Thank God that Matthew is super smart and knows how to break into vehicles without breaking things! I feel like that sounds like I'm dating a criminal haha but I don't know how else to put it.

Also I'm still having attachment issues to people who push me away. I don't know what to do anymore I have pulled until I was blue in the face but when it's only one person pulling and the other kind of just hanging on the other end not giving a crap what you do. It just sucks. I guess this is when you need to learn that you can't let people get that close you can't let them hold on to the part of you that is dearest to you because chances are that you'll get screwed in the end.
There are some people that you do love and should let in. They may trample all over you but in the end, what they gave you, the time, the friendship while it was real, the place in their heart where whether they like it or not your footprints remain, this is what makes it worth it.

I have lost and gained so many friends. Lost more then gained. But a wise woman helped me realize that its all the cycle of life and no matter what, whether they like it or not, they will think of you.

I'll always love you. Push or Pull.

<3

Shelby Lynn Boone

It's only two months old!!!

So last night I was over at Kylees. We were goofing around joking waiting for Matt to come back with my chicken Kickers. After getting them, Buffalo flavored of course, my mouth was on fire so I asked Kylee for something to drink and she says she has milk. I was game. She pours it in a cup and I take it and stare at her. I'm looking at it, and looking at her and I asked her "Kylee how old is your milk?" She looks at the carton and she cant find the expiration date. She told me to just taste it, "Its okay!" I wasn't so sure. I was laughing so hard. We finally found the date and she was laughing and took the glass from me and dumped it down the drain. She grabbed her camera and captured the moment. We had some awesome fun last night but her hair turned out amazing. I gave her highlights and low lights. Blond and red brown low lights that have been mixed with in the blond. Its pretty sick. I love it! She did too. We both like freaked out like little girls. While she was rinsing the red brown out though her tub looked like it was full of blood so I ran and got her camera and captured some nice moments too. Whats better than Kylees head under the faucet!? Over all it was a great night. Now I'm with the nerds lol :)

Shelby Lynn Boone

Pay it Forward.

So I'm sitting at Matt's cousins house and all of the guys are gaming and I am watching pay it foward waiting for Kylee to get home so that way I can give her high lights. I am so excited. I went to Aerial today and spent 44 dollars on hair products haha oops. Story of my life. Well, I've seen this movie so many times and the message still runs across my mind every now and then. SO, if you haven't seen it. SEE it. DO IT! Well I should go, Kylee is on her way to Walmart.

Shelby Lynn Boone